deep in night
lying solitary in bed
only stillness sprawling over heart
over mind, and over soul
touching the deepest-buried emotions
great ambition as I have
it fails to sweep away
all the puzzles stemming from life
trying to fade away some recollections
only to find it
becoming more and more impressive
as if carved deeply on my heart
craving to reach a sense of belonging
to seek a sense of security
but who knows where they are?
Far? Near ?
All in anyone’s guess
Staring at myself from the smooth mirror
Exploring how life has molded me
And how it will in the future
Studying how destiny has paved my way
And how it will in the future
Waving goodbye to the fleeing past
I am standing at the crossing of life
With growing fear and confusion
Reluctant to move forward
Some beautiful stories
Still merit my chewing one thousand times more
but the stride of life is beyond anyone’s hands
the train of time wheels me forward
however fiercely
my heart getting hold on the beloved moments
dragging me to the very present
silent
as I am lying in bed
tonight is another one not for sleep
but for reflection
for sentimentalism
for the sigh under no choice
