最近压力空前的大, 大得让我感受到许久未曾感受到的疲惫和恐慌. 每天都很早起床看书复习, 然后还要教雅思. 晚上累得完全是倒头就可以睡着的, 连一点思考的欲望也没有. 有时在大厅里看着书都会忍不住趴在桌上睡着了. 这周相对比较多时间, 因为课没那么多了. 所以可以抓紧一切时间复习.
其实我时不时会想起我去年刚回国的日子. 在那回国后约半年的日子里, 我实在过得太安逸了. 平时教教雅思或者BEC, 然后全是自由自在的时间, 所以过得很潇洒自在, 经常在外边吃喝玩乐. 当时也在忙着校园招聘的事情, 所以也没有心思进一步充实和提升自我, 所以浪费了很多时间. 现在想来真的多少有点懊恼. 我想, 如果我当时可以把握好那半年的时间, 学习自己想学的东西, 那么现在估计会好过很多. 不过我也深深地明白, 过多地为以前的事情后悔已经于事无补了, 我所能做的就是要好好利用以后的时间来实现自己的目标. 另外, 我的部分学生的经历和目前的状态也让我深受鼓舞. 他们以前没有花时间学好外语, 现在为了出国而考雅思, 可谓是历尽艰辛, 但效果却微乎其微, 进展极其缓慢. 这深深地触动了我的心! 一方面我在庆幸自己曾经花费大量的时间和金钱在外语上, 所以现在已经学到一定的水平而无后顾之忧了;另一方面, 我却替自己感到担忧, 因为如果现在我不趁自己年轻学好自己想学的东西, 多年以后我肯定也会像他们一样饱受折磨的. 所以, 这让我此次的决定无比的坚定, 不管发生什么事情我都会坚持自己的做法! 哪怕我这次的尝试失败了, 我明年一样要继续. 我就不信一直都不能将这件事情办成!
对过去的思考让我感触良多. 或许在别人的眼里, 我得到了许多东西, 但是在我的脑海里, 我却意识到过去失去了太多太多. 我不会再为以前流失的时间而懊恼, 因为我会通过珍惜未来和把握未来来弥补. 尽管过程会比较艰辛, 但是我知道, 如果我现在不去做, 多年以后我一样会为现在这一刻而后悔. 从现在开始, 我不能再让自己对过去有后悔的机会. 这是我给自己定下的诺言. 当时间被浪费时, 其实我们在无形中欠着债. 你浪费的时间越多, 你欠自己生命的债就越厚重. 而当你的人生走到一定的阶段, 当你的生命不能承受债务之重时, 你就可能被压得喘不过气来了. 这时候, 你要么要付出巨额代价来偿债, 包括时间和金钱, 要么你就甘于现状默默过一辈子. 我曾经欠的债已经够多了, 我一定要尽快还清, 同时争取以后不要再欠债了.
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Beijing to take 'necessary measures' to defend territory
Updated: 2012-09-06 02:12
By Zhang Yunbi (China Daily)
Tokyo endangers ties as it plans to 'buy' islands that belong to China
Beijing pledged on Wednesday to take "necessary measures" to defend its territory in response to Tokyo's plan to "nationalize" China's Diaoyu Islands within the month.
Analysts warned that Tokyo is pushing China-Japan ties into a corner.
Kyodo News agency reported that the Japanese government reached an agreement with the so-called "private owner'' of the islands to pay 2.05 billion yen ($26.15 million) for the purchase of part of the chain, apparently three of the five main islands, in the East China Sea.
"We cannot help but ask where is Japan trying to lead the islands issue to?" said Foreign Ministry spokesman Hong Lei in response to a question on Wednesday about the reports.
"China is closely watching the situation and will take necessary measures to safeguard territorial sovereignty,'' Hong said.
Sources at the State Oceanic Administration told China Daily that the relevant authorities have made preparations in case of any emergencies.
Lu Yaodong, director of the department of Japanese diplomacy at the Institute of Japanese Studies at the Chinese Academy of Social Sciences, said Tokyo's plan to "buy" the islands has, to some extent, derailed ties.
Ties have been strained since Shintaro Ishihara, the right-wing governor of Tokyo, unveiled plans on behalf of the city government to "purchase" the islands.
Japanese Prime Minister Yoshihiko Noda, facing mounting nationalism and growing unpopularity over domestic policies, announced a plan in July to "nationalize'' the islands, a move that prompted further protests from Beijing.
The plan is expected to be approved by the Japanese cabinet this month, Japan's Fuji Television reported on Wednesday.
"In response to Japan's plans to enhance its rival claim over the islands, China should take firm and powerful countermeasures to express the country's determination to guard its sovereignty,'' said Zhang Haiwen, deputy director of the China Institute for Marine Affairs.
Tokyo last week sent Tsuyoshi Yamaguchi, parliamentary senior deputy minister of foreign affairs, to China to cool tensions.
Yamaguchi also expressed Tokyo's wish to see Noda and President Hu Jintao meet on the sidelines of the two-day Asia-Pacific Economic Cooperation summit, which is scheduled to start in Russia on Saturday.
Diaoyu: 'Purchase' of islands tests Japan's friendship treaty credibility
Beijing has not confirmed any plan for the talks, and Chinese observers said Tokyo has not established an ideal atmosphere for the meeting.
Tokyo has turned a blind eye to a series of solemn representations and demands from Beijing as they pushed to "buy" the islands, Hong said, and Tokyo has "seriously infringed" China's sovereignty.
The Xinhua news agency slammed the reported "purchase" as a prank, saying it would test Japan's credibility over an "historical commitment" made in the 1978 friendship treaty to resolve the issue.
"The Japanese government has ridiculously reached an agreement with the self-claimed Japanese 'private owners' of China's Diaoyu Islands to formally purchase them, a daredevil move that could further wreck ties with Beijing," Xinhua said in a commentary.
Chinese activists landed on the Diaoyu Islands in August after sailing from Hong Kong. They were illegally arrested by Japanese authorities.
Days later, about a dozen Japanese rightists raised their country's flag on the same island, prompting protests in cities across China. |
